Death got to be Easy Cause Life is Hard



In all the days of my life I never thought life could be this hard. Paris is a young girl only 17 growing up in Englewood. She works hard everyday to get away from all the stress, and drama in her life. Paris is the middle child of her mother’s three children. Her sister Laura is the oldest at 25, and her brother Kyle is 10. Paris is the brain of the family; she makes sure she goes to school everyday. She plays all the sports: basketball, volleyball, softball. Paris plans are to get into college either with her grades, a sport scholarship, or both. It didn’t matter to her as long as she got out of Chicago. It was all up to her to be the first in her family to graduate from high school. Her sister Laura dropped out her senior year. Paris parents Mr. and Mrs. Johnson never had the chance to finish high school, both dropping out after there first born. Paris goes to family gatherings with her fake smiles, trying to find her inspiration. The sad thing is she’s not going to find it at home. There’s no one to say you finished your homework or do you need help? No on in her house works, everyone waits for the 1st for that free pay check. Some people would say what type of example is that? Paris starts to get lazy, not going to practice, and not doing her homework. Ever day that went by the further Paris dreams slipped away. After school she comes home to the same old drama. Paris has the usual argument with Kyle over the stupidest things. Paris gets aggravated because every time she turns around someone always needs help with there homework or wants her to do it for them. Laura the oldest is so spoil, it’s unbearable, she gets whatever she wants. When Paris asks her mom for money she gets the third degree. She never has money to put in her pockets, so she goes out to find a job. Paris knows if she does get a job, everyone will be all around her asking for money. People she’s not use to seeing will know the hours she works, when she gets paid, and how much she gets paid. That’s how it is in the Englewood neighborhood. Everyone is money hungry. After searching long and hard for a job, Paris found the perfect one. Food for Less was hiring, she could work around her school schedule, and could get paid every week. On her way to fill out the application she found out that she out to be 18.That information made her problems worst than the fact that she had no money for some new shoes. Paris is telling herself the only way she’s going to get the shoes is to start saving her 10 to 20 dollars she gets every month. Paris is becoming more and more depressed as life goes on. Her family depends on her for everything, to clean, cook, clean up, anything you name it. Paris love s it when she’s not at home, that’s the only time, she really feels free. Her favorite sport is basketball; to her it’s like therapy. Today is May 1st the day of their first playoff game. Paris is over the edge, everyone watching the game, cheering. She never invites her parents to games; it’s easier when they are at home. After winning the game by 32, Paris went home to rest for testing the next day. May 3rd testing day she prayed, studied and hoped for great scores. The following week was the end of the school year, no more work, the school was empty. Paris and her younger brother both got summer jobs. Laura moved to Atlanta to live with an aunt. The summer hadn’t even started yet and it’s already been four fights. Two people were shot in a drive by. A little girl looking out the window and her uncle on the front porch were both shot. Everyone knows the last day of school is like hell. It’s a good thing that she and Kyle’s summer jobs aren’t that far away. A week later Paris gets her fist paycheck and with excitement she goes to cash it. She thinks she’s going to get the Jordan, but she finds out her mom needs it to pay the rent. Every time she turns around someone puts a damper on her plans. Paris goes to her room with the 10 dollars her mom gave her. Why me? Kyle gets to keep majority of his check. The only thing the young girl could think about was leaving the house and Chicago quick and easy. She knew the way it was going to happen was by running away or death. She began to think to herself, if she ran away how she will survive, with what money. Paris went in her mom room while the family was in the living room watching Girl Friends, knowing there’s no disturbing them. She takes her father gun and went back into her room and locked the door. Paris was sitting on the floor looking straight at the barrel of the gun. She began to mumble to herself, saying death got to be easy because life is hard. As she takes the gun and put it to her temple, there’s a knock on the door. Click, the knock frightens her so badly she pulled the trigger. The good thing is the safety was still on. Open the door her brother said! She became happy by the fact that her brother wasn’t the one to find her miserable body. Her brother leaves, knowing there’s no way she’d open the door. Paris began to pray, Forgive me God for what I am about to do. Then a big bright light flashed before her eyes, leaving the room in total darkness. Her life was taken by her own hand; there was no way of knowing if her death was easy. But her parents soon learned to appreciate their children and never let them get to the point of knowing weather death is easy or not.

Kyra Simmons