Anthony Gonzalez

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Short Story

Lucid Dreams

         Entry #1- Well this is weird I plan to keep a journal and just keep track of what's going on in my 

life. It’ll be interesting to see how far this will go and what I write about. I really don't plan to get much out of this but memories and to see how I feel about myself in the future once I read this again. So just incase I change my name or something my name is Jesse Torres and I was born in Brooklyn New York. I'm currently 15 while writing this and I'm a sophomore. I plan to keep this private so if anybody else is reading this that's not me feel free to judge me all you want because I don’t care! I'm into the more quiet part of life. I keep a lot of things private I have a small group of best friends that I plan to keep in touch with forever and I have loving and caring family that will always help me whenever I’m down. All I want to see is progression in society and in myself. I wish one day to be successful so I could do whatever I want and pay back my parents and my friends for the great adventures and experiences I've had so far. I want change and I expect to see change.Entry #4- I  have my dreams to keep me sane. Without my dreams I’d be nothing but a sad and lonely soul. I hate what life has become and what the world has come down to. Its really sad and almost depressing. So I dream to survive, I dream to fight, and I dream for humanity. I've lived a good life but I could no longer carry on what society has planned out for me. I wish I could just fly away and move away from all the corruption. Now a days people are being brainwashed by the media and becoming slaves. Its not a fun thing to see considering I already see my brothers becoming brainless sheep. No matter how much I try to help them and try to show them the right way of living they don't listen and continue to pursue the life of a slaved idiot. They have all the tools to break away from that light but i guess they're too deep in the trance to fight back. But there is a small group of humanity that isn't brainwashed. That group consists of of diffrent people with different ideas but with the same goals in mind. I haven't met much people in person that have the same ideas but I've met people online who do. Im glad I found the inspiring words of the late great Jay Steez. Without the knowledge I gained from his music I probably would go crazy and join the slaves myself . The world has been changing in so many ways lately and its not a pretty sight. I like to dream and keep some of my ideas private. I still speak of ambitions and I'm not afraid to speak about my views on a topic I feel strongly about. But when I do  think I've said enough or whenever I feel like I don't want to live on this planet anymore I turn to lucid dreaming. Lucid dreaming isn't anything special but an art. It takes the right mindset and the right vibes for it to work. I believe its easier when somebodys has learned acceptance and when someone has learned to be at peace. I'm not claiming to be a master of this myself because I'm not. I'm able to Lucid dream when I want to though. These dreams take me on adventures and put me through new experiences without having to risk anything but a nightmare. Dreaming always puts me in different perspectives and problems that only help me grow. I hope that one day everyone is able to experience these dreams to really awaken their souls. Entry #7- So today has been another typical day at school. I got to chill with my friends and put up with the lame work the teachers gave me. But it's no problem after all I do enjoy challenges. Speaking of challenges I had a great dream where I was with God having a conversation. During that conversation I was asked "What is the meaning of life?" I was in shock because it's such a cliche question but it's such a powerful question because it always changes one's thinking process. I thought long and hard during my session and I woke up still trying to figure out what is the meaning of life. It was all I could think about today and I'm pretty sure it'll be a question I ask myself every day. What is the meaning of life? Entry #9 Well days have gone by and I'm still stuck with that question. Trying to find the answer I did some research on how to find out the answer for myself. I stumbled across some articles on meditation and some videos on how to cleanse the spirit. I found these out to be very exciting so I read up a little more and decided I want to be an indigo. Free spiritedness and quietness sounds like a rebirth. I want to follow the path of an indigo to find my answer and to get some new ideas flowing in me. It'll be the coming of a new me. This journey isn't something I could turn back on or something that will be easy. With the guidance and the information I'm receiving it'll only be a matter of time before I'm able to enter new dimensions and become one with my soul. I want to open my third eye. I want to release my chakras. I want to mediate. I want to dream. I need to find my answer. Entry #14 Well everything has been going smoothly lately. School has been quiet and so have I. I've been really interacting more with my family and friends in this short week. Everything just seems to be balanced and nice. It almost feels like I've been tripping off some stuff lately but I haven’t I just feel more at ease. My studying has kept me productive and I like that. I found out about a small step into cleaning the spirit and it is surprisingly a "fast". It got me hooked and I wanted to know more about this fast. It's basically I stop eating for a week. Nothing more and nothing less. I thought it was crazy at first and many others would think the same to if I attempted to do this. The fast is to put the body through a faze off grief and discipline. It's good for the mind as well and it would make for some real good dreams to. Many great philosophers have done this and it only helped them think more. Gandhi went through the fast to protest war and to show peace. I figured why not try this after all I could drink water so this really shouldn't be a hard challenge. I was ambitious and prepared so I told my friends of the idea and they just mocked me but it's okay because I'm not trying to impress no one. I'm trying to elevate and keep going forward. I knew this was crazy but it's only for the good. I had to eat one more time of course so I ate only my favorite foods before I went through this process. So before I move on to this I just want to wish myself luck. Entry #15- So the first day of my fast went by quick. I woke up took a shower, got ready for school, and chugged down 2 cups of water so my stomach felt full before I got to school. Classes were the same as usual and I felt fine. Once I got to lunch I got in line and picked up a lunch but I didn't eat anything or drink anything so I just gave it to my friends and told them to eat up. I sat back in my chair put on my ear buds and just drank my water day dreaming and having a moment for self reflection. The rest of day was the same, just a breeze. I was hungry but I wasn't bothered by it instead I was motivated by it. I knew I was learning self discipline and I liked it . But when I got home I felt tired so I put my phone on speaker and just napped for the day. When I was dreaming I felt lifted. It was amazing because during that dream I saw my future and I liked what I saw. There was positivity and confidence bouncing off me I felt new. It's crazy how thinking positive can lead someone down new paths. So I continu my day writing this and watching TV to put me in a sleepy mood. So before I end this I just want to leave myself this question for the future. Was all this worth it? Entry #17- These past few days have been a little harder but I have to keep moving forward. I don't feel sick but I feel empty and I noticed today that my pants were sagging a little today only to realize my pants got big or I'm losing weight. This boggled my mind because I just now realized that I'm going to łoose weight during this process. This will for sure make me look crazy now. Not only am I going to be seen as that weird kid but I'm now going to be seen as that physco kid. But like I said before "Who cares?" I shouldn't stress over this at all. I agreed to change and change is what I'm getting. Sure it'll be awkward seeing my slimmed down but it shouldn't be that bad either. If for anything it'll look good I guess but I could care less about what I look like because that's only something that shallow people worry about. I'm a strong minded individual and I know this because of everything I've taught and put myself through whether it's my dreams or my journey to enlightenment. By the way I think I'm going to star meditating. It's amazing for the spirit and actually healthy for the mind and body it could also help improve my dreams which will soon become visions. Entry #19- My fast is nearly over and I could now really feel myself become weak. I'm slowly starting to feel like I'm going to faint but it's okay because the school day is almost over. Once I get home I'll be able to dream peacefully in my nice warm bed. Man this is crazy! I can't believe I'm almost done with this process. I feel so changed! That might just be the weight loss speaking but I know this fast put me on a level of change and enlightenment. I still have a long awaited journey before I'm able to become a indigo but it feels amazing to know I'm a step closer. A lot is going through my mind but once Saturday is here I know for a fact I'm going to enjoy eating my grandma's food. But then again I know I shouldn't pig out because I think I like being skinny it's a good look on me. So I think I'll just take it easy on the eating and change to a simple and healthy diet to keep my shape. I think I'll even work out too but this could be thought about later what I really should focus on is the future dreams I’ll have. I know for a fact they're going to be wild and uplifting. Entry #47- Well it's been about a month now since that fast. A lot of good came out of it. I'm having that confidence boost and positive vibes bouncing off me like I visioned it a while back. It's crazy how I saw this happening. I guess it's just my 3rd eye beginning to show me what it's capable of. I like it. Meditation has done me so great to. Lately I've been feeling more healthy and bright like I'm some star or something. It's amazing how life works. Everyone's meant to go through obstacles and achieve success. I’ve started to shed out of my old skin and become somebody completely new. These are small fazes in my journey to being enlightened and being an indigo. It truly feels amazing. Life is going my way and my dreaming is becoming advanced. I could now take full control of some dreams I have. It's crazy because I could use those moments to do things I always wanted to do like get really good at skating but I'd rather use it to progress and look deep into my future and see what my soul wants to achieve. I could only hope I'll find my answer to that question that put me on this long journey. What is the meaning of life?